Well this is just plain cheesy and gay and romantic and all the things that I had always sworn I would never be. I got married this past weekend. Me...the person who swore up and down that hell itself would freeze over before I would ever do anything so insane as to get married again. The same girl that when people said "Hey, I'm getting married" used to say "Oh my goodness I'm so sorry"
That girl got hitched. I tried to fight love with everything in me. I knew that there was no way some guy would ever love me. I'm a mess! But love me he does. And when I tried to push away he pushed right back and made me realize forever could happen. The craziest part is...now that we're married I love him even more. Which is silly. Nothing has really changed. We aren't moving in together for a couple more weeks yet. So this past weekend we got married. He went back home on Sunday night. I won't see him again until next weekend. But something has changed. Something changed that night we got married. I couldn't sleep. I was so happy. I kept waking up and staring at him and thinking "oh my goodness...that's mine" and hoping it WILL be forever.
He sent me a cute picture of himself tonight and I just melted. It wasn't anything special. But I miss him so much already. And that's stupid too! I don't miss things. I don't have feelings. I'm a tough ass biznatch. But that one weekend has changed my world. Even though nothing else has seemed to have changed yet. I know have a lovely collection of sparkly rings on my finger. Me...the girl who HATES jewlery. I spend all day gazing at my rings, straightening them up, thinking I can't possibly go out wearing shiny shiny fancy rings and my usual jeans and a tshirt. Then I think ,heck...I don't want to go out at all.
What the heck has happened to me? I'm happy, I'm girly (god save the queen), and I'm spending my enitire day thinking of ways to make him happy. What is this? It's madness!
That girl got hitched. I tried to fight love with everything in me. I knew that there was no way some guy would ever love me. I'm a mess! But love me he does. And when I tried to push away he pushed right back and made me realize forever could happen. The craziest part is...now that we're married I love him even more. Which is silly. Nothing has really changed. We aren't moving in together for a couple more weeks yet. So this past weekend we got married. He went back home on Sunday night. I won't see him again until next weekend. But something has changed. Something changed that night we got married. I couldn't sleep. I was so happy. I kept waking up and staring at him and thinking "oh my goodness...that's mine" and hoping it WILL be forever.
He sent me a cute picture of himself tonight and I just melted. It wasn't anything special. But I miss him so much already. And that's stupid too! I don't miss things. I don't have feelings. I'm a tough ass biznatch. But that one weekend has changed my world. Even though nothing else has seemed to have changed yet. I know have a lovely collection of sparkly rings on my finger. Me...the girl who HATES jewlery. I spend all day gazing at my rings, straightening them up, thinking I can't possibly go out wearing shiny shiny fancy rings and my usual jeans and a tshirt. Then I think ,heck...I don't want to go out at all.
What the heck has happened to me? I'm happy, I'm girly (god save the queen), and I'm spending my enitire day thinking of ways to make him happy. What is this? It's madness!
